In my last post , “Why Am I Here” (semplywholewoman.com/2015/11/why-am-i-here-semply.html) I wrote about the insatiable desire that’s has been driving me to know my why, my purpose in life (for this season). I continue to grapple with that and roll it around in my mind and in my spirit. As a result of this initial question another layer has been revealed, or should I say a deeper question: “Who Am I?”
For some this may seem to be a silly question, because you may be able to tell by my picture that I am no spring chicken! Although I am no chicken, I have much spring still to be sprung!! J Despite my age, I am at this point asking the question and I don’t think that I am along in what I am about to say.
For many years I have ascribed my who, and the value of “me” to external things. I attributed my who and the value there of to being; a mother, a wife, a minister, an administrator, where I lived, what I drove, and so on. So who am I without these titles, without position, status and all that comes with it? If my identity and value is not found in the fact that I am a mother, not found in being a graphic designer, or an aspiring writer, nor defined by where I live, then who am I and how do I determine my worth?
I am keenly aware however of the fact that my do (my purpose & my why) although it’s not my who (not who I am), but it (my purpose & why) is definitely driven by who I believe myself to be and where and what I get self-worth from!
Who I am incorporates all the things God has gifted me to do. However, those gifts, no matter how great or noble are not who I am, they are simple what I do. They do not equate my value. So often I have based my value on my do and even my possessions, and title. So the question remains; without those things, “Who Am I”? Where do I find my value? I think most people to some degree base their value and self-worth on what they have and what they have accomplished, never stopping to understand that they have value a part from those things.
Well, at this later stage of my life I have come to understand that my value is predicated solely on and founded securely in Christ. It saddens me to say that have had a personal relationship with the Lord for most of my adult life but until now things were my center. I didn’t think that was the case, but if I got my value from my accomplishments and what I possess, then things were my center and not Christ. I am now beginning to take in the truth of who I really am. I am the daughter of the one and only, most-high God of the universe. I am everything that His word says I am. This is who I am, this is my identity: I am a royal priesthood, I am fearfully and wonderfully made, I am the head (not the tale), above only (never beneath), I am the beloved of my heavenly Father, and the apple of His eye.
I wish I could say that this is it for me, I got it…..but the fact of the matter is I am just beginning to understand who I really am. I do not claim to have fully comprehended this freeing truth, but this one thing I do, I am forgetting those things which I once ascribed my value to. I am pressing toward the mark of the higher calling. This higher calling requires that I know myself even as I am known, that I see myself, my value, my worth, my who, as God sees me. I fully believe that as I accept and live in and out of the truth of my true identity, my do will become clearer, more defined and of better service to those I am sent to serve, thereby bringing greater glory to the one whom I get my true identity. To my God be all the glory!
I must at this point say that this is a work in progress for me. To keep at the forefront of my mind and my heart that I am not what I do. That I am not valued by what I possess and where I live. So I have asked Jesus to be my center.
How about you, do you really know who you are and to what do you ascribe your value? Is your self-worth tied to life accomplishments and possessions? If so, I pray after reading this you will reevaluate and reposition your heart to say, “Jesus be my center”.
Until next time, live life to the fullest, laugh a lot and love much, and remember to never forget that you have greatness in you….. because you were created by a great God!
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